Covenant & Repentance for His Call.

so i got accepted by the modeling/acting agency..
but with the economy that we, the people of the united states, have on this day, i turned them down.

so i know this is random..
but i went up to my dad just to hug him and say.. "you're the only man who will never break my heart." and i tried to swallow after that. my throat didnt let me. low key; HE's still on my mind. just cause sometimes i just hope he's doing okay and that she's treatin' him right. but hey what can i do.. i love him. he loves her. so i just pray it out. and Walk it out With Jesus Daily. [;

so i went to mass twice today...
the alemany mass w/ alexis' family since i slept over; then i went to the 1245 st. john eude's mass with mine.. oh i saw john's aunt. no, i didn't ask about him.. i just acted like an old friend she hasnt seen in awhile.. but all she kept talking about was how she heard that i was on abdc and tv and stuff like that.

so ricky...
is this sweet guy.. but i'm all for jolo as of right now. i met him last night when me and alexis and john and kimchi and him were suppose to ......... uhh.. chill [; but i ended up just paying john 10 bucks for gas since we ended up not doin anythin. whatevuh whatevuh. oh, oh no sir, not that john. anyway point is.. ricky.. even though he was thizzin'; thought i had a cute smile and dahdahdah BOOM u know where that goes. he gets my number from alexis and he starts textin i start txtin back then he goes let's have lunch, if your available. and so i say why not? i mean. aint nothin wrong with a friendly acquainted get together meal, right? i mean.. people gotta eat with this recession up our asses..[;

so the title of this post..
i actually listened to BOTH masses and participated and even sang and everything. yeahyeahyeah whatevuh. lol. the priest said we need to feed on some food. spiritually, of course. but its pretty clever how he started off saying i bet u guys have a big appetite since its so early in the morn... [9 am] and then yeah he went on from there. then the 2nd mass i went to.. we should get ready and accept and listen to God's calling because the time to act and repent is NOW. and i mean i could go on and on with this but i'll just let ur mind do the talking with that.. mayn i felt so holy today no lie.. i even volunteered to be the main character in my other church's play for the church's anniversary next month [; actually i hesitated COMPLETELY and when i realized i was the only kid outta the box, i was like fine. whyyyy not. & i feel like they prayed that i was gonna make a move when i was tryna avoid them. if your really hella interested on that.. im gonna be acting the role of the guy on SET ME FREE look it up on Godtube.com [;

so winter formal...
i loveee alexis. not only cause shes a lil cute fuck, but cause she hooked it up with a fuckin dopeee ass dress for me to borrow so i wont have to buy one [; WOOOT. and boy, does it goes. i fucking LOVE IT. i canNOT wait for fckn formal cause of it. omg she is the tick tick. my lifesaver. oh its yellow btw, and im gonna wear my famous spiral silver heels; my famour silver fat belt. and my date is gonna wear a yellow vest and a silver tie or vice versa. guess who? [;

so..
i should bounce. and i promise i'll put up some pics up in this bland boring blogspot of mine next time. meanwhile, i start tonight.. and cram the whole night fucking through.. on 3 weeeks of fuckin schoolwork [;